feelings

you tell me to look at you and answer the question.

i cant

i can not look at you

because if i look i’ll see those eyes

those deep forest eyes

the ones i always always get lost in

and if i get lost i’ll forget i don’t want to talk to you

and if i convince myself i want to talk to you i’ll tell you the truth

but the truth i cant tell you, because i don’t like the truth

so you face me, saying to look at you, your hand on my wrist

so i do

i look at you

i take a breath

i look at you, at your lips,  and i lie

i lie lie lie

i lie to you and say i’m fine

i’m. not. fine.